Today marks the 6th angelversary of the loss of my younger sister, Kathi. This blog was created to honor her memory. It was also created as my therapy to cope with my survivor’s guilt. It’s hard losing a sibling, especially one that’s younger than you.
Even though my eyes still leak from time to time or they turn into a fountain when memories come rushing back, I have finally found acceptance in her death. A lot has happened in the last few years and I have grown much closer to God.
I can’t begin to understand why she was called Home at the tender age of 37. I don’t know why her children had to grow up without a mother. Those questions will remain a mystery as I have stopped looking for an answer. What will be, will be.
I do know life is precious. It’s easily wasted with arguments, fights and alienation of family and friends. Be there for those who need you. Express affection sooner than later. We need to live for today, because as life has taught me, no one gets an extension when your time is up.
It’s ok to grieve. It’s ok to take as much time as you need to process a loss. I will never get over losing my sister. However, I can remember her spirit and know she will always be watching over me. I can continue projects she found important. I can get the Kathi’s Cares Program into non-profit status so I can show other cancer patients they are not alone. Cancer, in all forms, is a horrible disease. It’s time to find a cure and let doctors and pharmaceutical companies know our lives are not for profit.