“You must take personal responsibility. You cannot change the circumstances, the seasons, or the wind, but you can change yourself. That is something you have charge of. ” (Jim Rohn)
“The distance between who I am, and who I want to be is measure only, by my actions.” (Anonymous)
A little less than a year ago, I shared a memory about when I was confronted about my not-so-girly tattoos. If you’d like to read about it and see some of my tattoos, you can do so here.
Since that time, I’ve continued to get more ink. My latest piece, or I should say pieces, are a tribute to my mother. I started with a simple tattoo, in script, that said,
Give Me Strength
I had no idea how I was going to continue without my mother.
In addition to losing my sister only a year before my mom suddenly passing, I was now the guardian to my five and six year old nieces. My husband was not on board with that necessity. Add my daughter into the mix who never had to “share” mommy and chaos was the norm. My life was a mess. So yes, I prayed for strength daily.
Turns out I was only a guardian for about a year. However, that experience will always stay with me. I will always second-guess decisions I had to make. Life hasn’t been the same since, but that’s a story for another day.
Not too long ago, I had the tattoo finished. I added an cracking hourglass, with red sand and blue roses. Blue was my mom’s favorite color. The banner read, “Gone Too Soon”.
I’m waiting for some money to get another tattoo. That will represent my status as an Army mom. It will be a single rose that will be red, white and blue. It will have a ribbon down the stem, saying, “Army Mom”. Finally, there will be a pair of dog tags at the bottom of the stem and my son’s name will be on one of the tags. It will go on my left forearm. Under my sister’s memorial tattoo. My son and my sister had a special bond, so it’s only fitting their tattoos share the same arm.
A couple tattoos I didn’t share in the last post are on my legs. My left leg bears my volunteer work when I was with Soldiers’ Angels. I wrote to many deployed military personnel and Gold Star families. I even had the opportunity to coordinate a Marine homecoming. It was the highlight of my volunteer work.
This the circle of the branches represent the halo and the wings represent the wings of an angel. This was my version of a “Soldier’s Angel”.
I have two tattoos on my chest. These represent my children. My first four are on a rose that has four hearts and their initials are in one heart for each one of them. It was my very first tattoo and really needs to be redone.
On the other side is a tattoo my youngest picked out as “her” tattoo. I had to talk her out of quite a few tattoo selections. I explained I’m getting a tattoo just for her, but since it will be on my body for life, I agree to it first. We ended up with a multicolored butterfly.
So there’s a bit more a glimpse into who I am. I love my tattoos and the meaning behind each one. I enjoy discussing tattoos with people. They are just so interesting and normally there’s a story attached to each one.
If you have a tattoo you’d like to share, I’d love to see them!
I recently noticed that a Planet Fitness gym had opened about half a mile from my house. I had belonged to that same gym in another city several years ago. I decided to join again. Not because I have made some resolution to lose weight or that I’ve jumped on the fitness bandwagon, or I have delusional goals of being super skinny.
If you remember my word that I picked for the new year was “understanding”. Part of being honest with myself is working on my body while dealing with Celiac’s, which includes regular exercise. I figure for $10.00 per month, I’m worth that.
I don’t need saunas, pools, massages, tennis courts or any other amenity that will raise the monthly rate. I simply need an elliptical machine, a treadmill that will allow me to run/walk and maybe a few other toning machines and I’m good.
This weekend, a (male) friend I haven’t seen in a long time, told me he liked my haircut; that it suited me and my face. I’ve lost considerable weight over the last couple years, and I’m making some simple cosmetic changes to go with it.
I’m working on keeping me healthy. I enjoy “me” time. I enjoy running. The winter weather in N. California isn’t always conducive to running outside. A simple, affordable, gym membership will allow me to stay on track.
After all, two lattes cost more than this membership. I for one, make coffee at home and work, so this is my “treat”.
“We’re put here on Earth to learn our own lessons. No one can tell you what your lessons are; it is part of your personal journey to discover them. On these journeys we may be given a lot, or just a little bit, of the things we must grapple with, but never more than we can handle.” (Elisabeth Kubler-Ross)