Tomorrow will mark 10 years since my father passed away. In the last two weeks, I have remembered the loss of my sister and mother. I have lost three family members; all in the month of June. All by the time I was 41 years old.
Mortality is in the forefront of my mind. It’s hard to ignore it. All three of them had cancer, two were defeated by it and one passed, due to illness complications. So, yes, wondering if I will meet an early demise, in June (no less), brings up lots of questions.
I didn’t have the best relationship with my father, but my sister’s and mother’s deaths hit me hard and their angelversaries elicit uncontrollable emotions. There are specific things that I remember about each of them.
- Recovering Alcoholic
- Sports fan (Mets/Giants)
- Friend to Chuck
- Unable to show love to his family
- Hard Worker
- Horrible Cook
- Loyal friend
- Loved the outdoors
- Dedicated mother
- Couldn’t cook rice (LOL to the family)
Gets me to thinking how, or even if, my children will remember me. There’s history that hasn’t been discussed on this blog. My youngest child will be the affected the most. I can’t say the other children will be that upset or even care. It’s a bitter pill to swallow, but I am not ignorant to my reality either.
What will my friends think of me? Will I have a large attendance at my funeral? Probably not. I can’t see that. I’ve done a lot of personal reflection. I am planning the details of my funeral. I never want to have to put someone through that.
Death is inevitable. I choose not to fear it. I believe God has chosen my path. It certainly hasn’t been an easy road to follow, but I will continue on it until I am called home.
The end of 2016 is quickly approaching. With it comes the promises of fulfilling those pesky resolutions people pick to force themselves to change in the upcoming year. Depending how much celebrating takes place on New Year’s Eve, those resolutions may not last a week; depending when they were made.
I gave up resolutions three years ago. Instead, a friend introduced me to a new concept: selecting a word to represent you for the following year.
That being said, it takes a bit of reflection and thinking to see what word would best represent you. There is no penalty for choosing a word that is way off base. There’s no word police, well unless you’re on Facebook. (hee hee)
Simply choose a word, based on what you hope to accomplish, changes that have passed or may come to pass and how you hope life treats you.
In 2015, my word was “perseverance”. It proved to quite the word that year.
In 2016, my word was “genesis”. While I had some new beginnings, it wasn’t quite what I was hoping for.
My word for 2017, after quite a bit of thought, is going to be….
How will 2017 influence me? Who might I influence? How will I react to those influences?Obviously, I can’t answer those now. You will have to check back around this time, next year, to see if my word was a good pick or not.
So, are you sticking with tradition or you ready to venture out into the word-picking world?
I was reading a yummy post on What’s For Dinner Moms? blog and it reminded me of my 2016 word: Understanding.
I had almost completely forgotten about it as the pressures of home and work have kept me extremely busy. So, I am taking a minute to see how my 2016 word has been working out so far.
It’s a bit more than half-way through the year. Lots has happened and you’d know more about what if I was a better blogger. Regardless, I think “understanding” has shown through in many ways; to date.
Without getting political, I have a better understanding of where my friends’ political views stand. I don’t agree with some of them, but I can follow their reasoning. It’s also helped me to understand where I do and don’t belong. I was feeling on the fence about certain groups I was in. Learning some new information helped me know that it was time to distance myself, in and in one instance, leave a group I thought was right for me.
That being said, a friend, has been very inspirational and looks for the good in others. I have gained more understanding into what my triggers are and am working on trying to see the other side of the coin, if you will. I’m trying not to judge as much, which in turn, leads to a better understanding of people and the situations they are going through.
For the most part, “understanding” has been a very appropriate word and it suits 2016 well. I will be selecting a new word for 2017, so join me closer to the new year to see what I have chosen. You too could join the “ditch the resolution and pick a word” club.
If this has intrigued you, and you’d like a word for 2016, go ahead…select one…see how it plays out for the rest of the year. If you’re not shy about it, I’d love to know what word you chose.